Faith. Hope. Courage. What drives people? What makes success? Is it the Faith that we will succeed? Is it the Hope that everything will turn out well? Or is it the courage to do something besides what every one says. I think it is all.
I've been working on the ideas behind Royal Beginnings for years now. My idea was always to get it published, to share it with an audience I found myself very much in the middle. Yet I've had a problem. It kept me from sharing the idea with others, from letting others read it. Whenever I felt like some one was reading over my shoulder as I wrote, I would get paranoid and freeze up. Maybe it sounds like I have a problem with thinking everyone is out to get me, but I'm more of a optimistic person than a pessimistic one. No, my problem is different. It is the same reason I had a hard time applying for jobs.
Its a fear its not good enough.
That's why I think it is a combination of several things. I have faith and hope that I can write a successful story, but no matter how good the story is, until I have the courage to share it with others, to let go of an idea I think is great to see what other people think of it, it will never succeed.
Maybe you're wondering where this is coming from, and it is a fair question. I often gauge how well I'm doing based on the support I get from my younger brother and sister (Trust me, it is not the smartest idea...). Most of the time I get smart alec comments, or you know, my sister complains that I'm not spending enough time with her (can you tell she uses that alot?) Any way, my sister was sitting on the couch next to me last night, watching me apply for jobs. I applied for quite a few, and finally opened up the chapter I was working on so I start working on that when my mom told us that we were going to eat soon, so I got up to help. My sister then laid down where I had been sitting. To my surprise when I saw what she was doing after we ate, she had been going through all the chapters I had written and reading them. She may not have told me if she liked it, but the fact that she wanted to read it told me a great deal. It gave me the courage to move on, to stop thinking about what others will think. Some will like it, other's won't, but I will never know who likes it unless I have the courage to try.
That's what I am working on, developing the courage to move on despite what other's say.
Its a fear its not good enough.
That's why I think it is a combination of several things. I have faith and hope that I can write a successful story, but no matter how good the story is, until I have the courage to share it with others, to let go of an idea I think is great to see what other people think of it, it will never succeed.
Maybe you're wondering where this is coming from, and it is a fair question. I often gauge how well I'm doing based on the support I get from my younger brother and sister (Trust me, it is not the smartest idea...). Most of the time I get smart alec comments, or you know, my sister complains that I'm not spending enough time with her (can you tell she uses that alot?) Any way, my sister was sitting on the couch next to me last night, watching me apply for jobs. I applied for quite a few, and finally opened up the chapter I was working on so I start working on that when my mom told us that we were going to eat soon, so I got up to help. My sister then laid down where I had been sitting. To my surprise when I saw what she was doing after we ate, she had been going through all the chapters I had written and reading them. She may not have told me if she liked it, but the fact that she wanted to read it told me a great deal. It gave me the courage to move on, to stop thinking about what others will think. Some will like it, other's won't, but I will never know who likes it unless I have the courage to try.
That's what I am working on, developing the courage to move on despite what other's say.